it feels like..

i am such a screw up
sighs..

debbie and uncle toto just ate my horrible hot cross buns
but then toto keep saying its very nice
lmao..
i guess thats what parents are ment to do for their children

no matter how much the screw up
they still encourage them
so that they wont give up

but for my own parents
nothing i ever do is ever good enough
i'll never live up to their expectations
which is for me to be like my cousins

well im sorry im not as perfect as them
and recently i realised as much as i want to be like them
we are worlds apart

my baby isnt in the best of mood
and sighs..
i guess im starting to feel how hard its going to be
but im trying
very very hardd..