Second thoughts?

hmm.. never in the world did i think i would be sitting here
CONSIDERING
if i should go to the party tomorrow

its one of the highest profile parties of the year!
but i realised a few problems
- nothing to wear
- i have no alcohol supply ( apart from my bottle of Jack Daniels )
- not many of my close friends are going
- Breaking the " Status Quo " if i go!

stress right??
tho i am very flattered that alot of ppl including ppl from my krew
did not get invited to this exclusive party
but i did =D

but i dont want to feel awkward also
cause its not an event that someone like me would turn up to
its just a thing with the different krews
like the girls from that group who dont like me would say
" Nicole, that C Block Krew skank "

still, its not all about them
I misssss the dancefloor soooo much
and im pretty sure i'll have a good time

hopefully, everything would turn out alright
and i would look fab tomorrow =)

*cross fingers*

hmmm its annoying how ppl are sucking up to me
just cause they know im having a party
and they all wanna come
LOL
and i feel evil for like crossing ppl's name out when they irritate me
then those who suck up to me, i put their name in ETC
haha..
they just said one of my parents have to be there =_=
gayyyy
that sucks big time..
sighs
oh well