no more good mood

im sooo fucking irritated
i dont even feel like going to the national day already
FUCK

FIRST
my mum has to be a mega bitch about the whole thing
shant elaborate
and NOW, im going to attend all the stuff alone??
all the events start at 2
but debbie and co. are only going for the eating at 4?
then what two fucking hours alone
and have to see HIS face
dont want to say his name
i know he has many "spies"
but seriously

im damm pissed off
argh
why cant everything go my way

suddenly i really miss singapore
where i know no matter where i go and what i do
there will be someone tagging along with me
accompanying me
now its like i have no one
sigh

then again, i realise there is not much left for me if i go back
i see no point
after reading the blogs of a few so called friends
and this quote
"giving up 2 important people in my life was my own decision . nothing to do with anyone"
by a certaint someone
in attempt to make me feel guilty using reverse psychology

its funny how people apolegise to you and in the end you feel like its your fault
even tho the other party says its theirs?

have a nice rest of your life
because you can count me out of it
wouldent it be nice if you guys never had to see this face of mine again?

i'm gonna bleach my hair blonde
and run away to america to start a new life
or stay in australia
whichever way works