not so sunny afterall

* disclaimer*
boring post, readers might want to skip it

it was all my wishful thinking
did i really think today was gonna be a re-union?
did i really think soon everything will be fine?
how oh so very wrong was I

I understand people grow up and people grow apart
Its just the way life is
and i've learnt to accept it

Its okay =)
I was just getting happy that there was someone eles in my life that CARED about me
perhaps not
its okay
i'm alright
i guess i can still live without a "second daddy" in my life
although many people are dying for that position
but its okay
i have other people to care and dote on me =)

maybe its not your fault?
maybe something is happening that i dont know about ?
perhaps
but i shant question

Dad treid to make me happy by telling me you would be coming today
and mum perpared so much food
we were gonna give you a surprise b'day party
i dont know if things keep getting in the way
or if you are avoiding us
or if its my dads fault
but whatever the reason
i accept it

i'm in my room now
while everyone is outside
but i dont want to go out there
because you are not there

have a good rest of your life =)
thats what i say to people that walk out from my life
but its okay
because one day
the day where everything falls into place
the day where you see me on the magazine
the day where you see me on tv
the day where my named in mentioned by everyone
that will be the day you think back and wonder why you ever walked out from my life

sighs
Darling, i wish you were here!
maybe you could tell me what is happening!