Another reason to hate my parents

put me under fucking pressure
and they would never understand my study stress

I put alot of stress on myself as it is
I wont be happy
untill I see Stright As one day
hopefully in uni my day will come

then everyone will stop fucking looking down on me

I know im abit ditsy, clumsy and slightly bimbotic
but I do want to do well in my studies
not just that
in everything
I want to be the best
I hate not being as good as the person better then me

I shant mention particular people here
because I know they might be reading

Sigh I went to school to get my results today
they are fucking bad
the teachers and others say its fine
we are met to get results like this in year 11
because in year 12 our marks get put up since we do hard subs

Maths - 85% Althought I was aiming for that, i wish i did beter
Chem - 68% bull shit
English - 62% hopefully it will pull my previous failing marks up
Art - 59% I feel like slapping my teacher when she said this is a good mark
History - 48% I failed
sigh
not a surprise
I suspected
and I expected my teacher to yell at me

she is like my fav teacher,
I always look up to her , and somehow wish to impress her.. haha
Shes abit scary tho in a way
but she did not even raise her voice as me
She told me its alright, because my mistakes can easily be mended in time for A levels next year

and she also said that, shes know I have potential,
and my exam is NOT a reflection of what Im capable of

I know shes right
SO WHY THE FUCK DO WE HAVE TO SIT EXAMS ?
thou shalt not judge or thou shalt be judge by thy father
okay why am i quoting the bible?

moving on
by right my results are very average
60 + is ment to be good
but my parents will frown uppon it

even 70 + sometimes is never good enough
so let me ask
when will you ever be satisfied?
never
but you know what?

FUCK YOU

I dont live for you
I live for myself
I hate you for making me hate myself because im "not good enough"

I know you are bored
and dont really care that my life is hell
so I shall end here