Merry Christmas all =)

celebrated christmas at my cousins place yesterday
ate mexican food
drank lychee martini
and had champaigne tooo

also played wii
and sang karaoke
and my photoshoot pictures were being screened yesterday

everyone could not believe that was me.. haha
im glad everyone liked the pics and was proud of me
teehees

the pressure is on to make it one day
I just need the chance
haha
someone hire me ! =x

okay whatever
but yeah, anyone who stands in the way of me and my dream
does not deserve to be part of my life

anyway after that opened pressies etc

then my stomache started to hurt real bad
tried to go sleep after eating medicine
but woke up at like 3 am groaning in pain

seriously felt like i was dying
dunno what is wrong

now its starting to hurt again =(

sighs

Im happy
yet when I think of certaint stuff I get emo again
oh well

one can live without love, yes?

I guess i'll just have to continue whispering to myself
" its alright. "

went to church this morning
and all day could not keep my mind off that one thing
sighs

went for lunch with the family
me and my cousins all chatted about the good old days
barbie dolls, play dough, etc etc

used to play mermaids, and Id make lil play dough lunches while waiting for them to come home frm school

haha

I was a good kid when I was younger

wonder what the hell happened =x