Materialistic

love cause me so much hurt and anguish
money has always been my friend
perhaps it was my wishful thinking ??

I can say today I was very happy
or I could say today deep inside i was at war with myself
I guess, what isnt mine will never be mine

so I have to buy what I want,
because its something that I can call MY OWN
that is MINE
that will never run away from me ..

this is a super sad thing man..

is it some sort of a curse?
that my happyness doesnt last more then 2 days

anyway I spent OVER 1K today
bought 2 GUCCI Bags
Nike Shoes
and a top to wear to clubbing

super broke now.. ahaha
thats life right??

today I couldent help myself
it seams every cent I spent it made me slightly happier

im so dissapointed now
no mood to update
sorry I shall do it tomorrow or another day