Nicole Tan - My Fabulous Life

Yesterdays dinner was awsome
I shall update more about it later when I get back and when they peeps have sent me the pics

Ive been happy lately
but ive also never been so confused in my life
seriously sometimes I feel my mind is being played with

everything thats happening is so contradicting
most of all, I wouldent want to start something I know is gonna end
well what if it doesnt have to end ?
that requires either one of us giving in/ changing our lifestlyes
and it might even mean I have to give up my dream
and im not willing to do that sorry

It gets even more complicating when you add another person in.
we all enjoy being together should I back out before it gets to complicated?
I cant help myself
I too am trying desperately to forget someone
I too need some extra help
I too am stuck in the middle

Its either I be selfish, or I be a good friend
I have never been a good friend
I always choose love over friendship a
nd that was because I never really had a BEST friend
now I have one will it change me ?

I hate who I am im not like you,
who gives everything up for friends
I wanna be that kinda person but im not
and I dont really know what I want right now

I guess time will tell
we'll just see how it goes
I want you to be happy too
but im tired of being miserable myself

SO WHAT SHOULD I DO ?