stories stories and more stories

today was full of stories, maddy's drammatic "love stories"
and alot about my family's past

from filthy rich to super poor
and starting from scratch all over again
and about my grandfather
sighs, I miss him
I dont have much memory of him, as I was only 2 when he left us

even during the short period of time when he knew me
he knew I was going to be real sucessful and do great things =)
I believe that he believes in me
and for him, I will persue my dream
jump over every hurdle
overcome every obstacle

gosh im so emotional

my day had been greatly affected by my dream last night,
I dremt that I had a daughter,
in my dream she was already about 2 years old
real active and real cute, but obidiant at the same time

She was adorable, with brown hair and fair skin
most of all, she adored me

people who knows me well
knows I cant stand kids
always say im not gonna have kids
and my biggest fear is getting pregnant

I never thought I would have a daughter who would love me
and we would get along

perhaps cause I dont have a good relationship with my mum
its forever world war 3 with us in the same room

this blog post is getting so crazy.
I think my dream was influenced by the 4th book of the twilight saga
which i completed yesterday
what a nice happy ending
Bella, Edward and Renesme

right now I have mixed emotions
I just wanna scream
I hate you! Go away! Fuck off!