Those little things..

im just gonna blog quickly before i return to my studying
i guess i wont be sleeping tonight
i cant sleep anyway, so it doesnt matter..

im just gonna study my chem =)
its worth it, i got 78% on my recent chem test =DD
and its an A!! whooooop

i cant concentrate.. images just keep flashing..
songs keep playing..
and i cant help thinking...

I remember looking at my phone yesterday before i went to bed
thinking, if it doesnt ring tonight..
then it wont ring anymore =)
and it didnt ring.. so i guess..

and in those hours i sit there letting my thoughts run
while i chat to Nik
listening to " your love is just a lie" by simple plan
maybe everything is retribution?
I've been to reckless..
made too many mistakes
im not a good person
listening to that song, i thought of all the ppl's ive let down in my life
and then i thought of all the people that have let me down

maybe im just too naive
maybe i search too hard for perfection

after the sad feeling wear offs..
comes the anger

i think to myself

there comes a point where you have to make choices and sacrifices
i was willing to give up anything and everything,
because i thought, it was worth it!
what i got in return was far more important
i got rid of everything that i was, everything i wanted to become
all for the glimps of hope that i no longer have to suffer playing this game of "love"

and then there comes another point
where you ask youself
Is it worth it?
Is is appreciated?
Is it even reconised?
I dont see the point anymore!
I hated to answer that question
because i knew the answer clearly..

please tell me that its worth it
because i dont know anymore
tell me that i'll make it through
because i cant take it anymore