Im the kind of girl..

Im the kind of girl then will spend hours dolling myself up
Im the kind of girl that will get rough an super competitive and loves playing contact sports

Im the kind of girl who is fierce and fiesty will not let anyone step over me
Im the kind of girl that will hide my sadness, my feelings of despair and heartache

Im the kind of girl that cares about keeping up with a good image
Im the kind of girl that will let my guard down and do stupid silly things just to make others laugh

Im the kind of girl who is self centerd
Im the kind of girl who never forgets the people who once shared something special with me

Im the kind of girl who can be anti-social and cold hearted tho those I dont know
Im the kind of girl that will do whatever it takes to make the peopl I care for happy

Im the kind of girl who gets angry easily
Im the kind of girl who stops being angry easily

Im the kind of girl tha wans alot in life, big dreams and ambitions
Im the kind of girl who smiles and can be easily happy by the little things people do for me

Im the kind of girl who is confident, thick skined and doesnt care what people say or think about her
Im the kind of girl that gets insecure and really just think im a normal average person just like anyone else

Im the kind of girl that loves to party hard and drink
Im the kind of girl that likes to study and will never be happy with just a "pass"

Im the kind of girl who can be lazy
Im the kind of girl who will work hard to get what I want

Im alot of things, and Im not alot of things

its hard for people to understand me

I guess by being a gemini my personality is very contradicting ?

LOL
well now anyone who reads this will know a little bit moe about me
or just go " this girl is a crazy freak with too much time on her hands."

haha oh wells you cant please everyone

Im heading to BUTTR COOKIES 2nd YEAR ANNIVASARY tonight at my fav club Butter Factory
with one of my fav sg DJ's spinning, DJ ANDREW T
and aussie number 1 hip hop RnB Dj from SYDNEY who also DJ-ed at our DYNASTY event
DJ MOTTO

its gonna be a blast!

Nicole is confused

fell kinda confused and shitty right now
decided to update my blog since merv is so harworking and updates like everyday

well, today I found out some stuff and it kinda gave me mixed feelings
elections for my social club, chinese society is coming up

and then Top 4 (execs) positions are up for grabs
president, vice-president, secretary and treasurer
today ness told me that I got nominated for 3 positions
vice president, secretary and treasurer
which I was super shocked yet flattered to hear

I told people I wanted to run for secretary and that was all I was pretty much hoping for
it would make me more then happy to be the Top 4 for CS
but at the back of my head I believe i've done alot for this club and definately deserve a little more maybe

I rejected treasurer but im still pondering if I should run for vice president

my besfriend B, is the current VP and is re-running for it next year
and she pretty much told me, that she doesnt want me to run for it
apparantly she is scared that if I went up against her, she would lose and she really wants it

im torn because I really want to go for VP, or at least be able to try to
you know, given the chance to at least try since ppl actually nominated me

but I know if I do, B will probs like hate me and call me a backstabber and stuff

which is unfair because our 2 other friends J and C are gonna run for it too
and she gave them permission to run against her

but why not me?
because im bigger competiton?

some other ppl have told me that if she was such a good friend, she understand and let me go for it
friendly competition may the best person for this club win

is going for VP worth risking my friendship?
should the future of the club be a bigger priority?
here's whats on the line
friendship,
reuptation
future of the club

at the moment I think im just gonna stick with secretary, and give up VP position to her
the feeling still sucks tho, I would at least like her to give me permission to, so im given the option of rejecting or accepting
rather then feeling like im forced to.

SIGH
such is lfie